Salam.
Well, today,
I had just finished writing the minutes of the meeting held yesterday. It was awkward to the max to me. Cuz I have never ever written a minute in my life.
Yesterday was the Meeting of the Department and in a sudden rush of the moment, the head of department selected me.." Okay, ...please...come here and be the secretary for this meeting.." awkward as it may seem..
awkward it is...
hehhee
Well, before this, just 15 minutes before, I had spent an hour with Amr advising him about self conscious, how to be more confident in yourself..and how to tackle an interview..And on and on I rambled..that was just a few minutes before.
And I guess part of it shows..in the brilliance..the exuberance..of ME..to be picked and noticed by the HOD to be the honourary SECRETARY
ops..was that what I wanted ??..Nope!!
and did I mention I wore a bright baby blue dockers shirt.
Okay so you sat beside the HOD. I tried very best to keep my composure..
and they rambled a lot in the meeting
........the meeting ended.....I wrote everything..well almost everything..
only things I wanted to hear..I just cant stand that there is no bacteriologist in the Dept. and me being one.. I felt..a little bit down cause..I wasn't qualified to be a lecturer yet..so...I best kept my head down and kept silent.
And..the HOD just said that she wanted the minutes by Friday. I nodded..(assuringly..I hope)
I hessitated..
I had no experience as such
I couldnt do it..
I never did it before
are they trying to FORCE me to do something..
o oo
oh no..i felt a mental block coming on..
"come on.. " i said to myself
just one point of the numbering at a time.
just one page at a time..i soothed myself
I went on and did the task immediately. Its for my own good to "do it immediately, cause..otherwise you'll forget" the HOD told me. so I obliged..and quickly did it.
and so i did the minutes ..by the templates that was handed to me in a thumbdrive..
and i finished it by 4.30 and print it out...
i..but i wasnt sure of whether i wanted to pass it right away (will it invite more errands next time) or may be i should just wait till Friday..
at 4.45 I just went in the hod office and she came out.
ops..I hadnt time to knock
she invited me in
"come come..lets correct it right now'
then she did some corrections.
and so I sat there in front of her
like a master student awaiting corrections
feeling like a slave to a master
feeling guilty although i did none
(somebody feel me?)
she was damn polite.." this correction has nothing to do with you, ok, so its just procedure, dont get any hard feelings."
that was so nice
still it didnt stopped me to feel the way i did before
guilty as charged
(tis something I am . not much as i planned it to be)
and the same time
am so effing tired of being guilty. It is not right for my career.
I must do something..
she gave me the corrections..
then after had some tea..i went and finished it..that evening..
before i head on home..
its an accomplishment..for me
this morning..i had bfst and wanted to print it in amr's lab. but the hod caught me..
and asked me to print in her office instead..
It was a daunting task.. Me having to be face to face with the HOD. Yesterday and now today
She smiled all the way.. as i handed out the minuted..
the way I felt was..scared+ guilty as charged..
I dunno I was just being me..
you know me ..
I am guilty as charged..
I havent finished my writing up..just a tad more..
she reassuringly said" now, you know the format and it'll be better for your future doing admin work in the office"
after printing twice for corrections..
she accepted the minutes and filed it in..
thats an accomplishment i should cherish and savor
cheers to more success in the future..
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