STOLEN me after all of all its me.its so sad how can this be..i still cant imagine it happening to me..what did i do? what i didnt do right this time..must be the luhit.not only me it seems that granpas house was also burgled yesterday..tok chu found out on thursday maghrib..when he went to prayers..wan chik's house was also burgled..so sad

kish lost her sim card..i lost my hp and simcard.

I was so shocked so shocked.! I though it was a joke....my motorbike of all the things..my motorbike..i musta have been looking like a rich kid..i stuffed all my things inside the GIVI box, my wallet, hand phone, my bag, cd player..luckily i didnt bring all or much cd..just before that i bought the best of sting..anyways its fated already, still its so sad..

ive have been having this thoughts before this incident, happen that one day i'll go back to my motorbike and found that its gone.not once, not twice, more than that..so i ignored it..so what? well my motorbikes missing..and do you know how i felt? i felt emotionless..i cant believe its happening..no no someone must have been joking

i went to report at balai polis dang wangi near VI..just now..the robbery took place at 5.40 in the afternoon and i realized its missing at 6.40 ..so sad come to think about it..so sad..(so nicelah thing cranberries song)..

warning? premonitions? well ive had it around 3 months back..i remembered of thinking that something was about to happen to my motorbike if i didnt lock it properly..well i did lock it but still the keys are inside the GIVI box..so alas, the same thing still applies.

1.If iveknown this thing shouldve happened, then,the first thing id do is not to go jogging today..but ive ignored my hearts say today..concerning more on what my body might need..exercise..

then ive might just not leave home then, leave it alone..then

2.if ive known what might have happened, then, i'll bring the keys (my motorbike keys) with me ..cause ive seen people carrying, keys and hand phone with them while they went jogging..(i never thought much about it at all) cause it never occurred to me that this thing would happen..

3. Locked or not locked seem not to be the case because still i put all my keys inside the GIVI box..

4.Luhit being part of this ..of course..and maybe part of it maybe because i didnt follow my moms direction to pay the phone bills at titiwangsa? perhaps..who knows..Still i cant seem to feel that this is why this thing happen.(not weighted to this)

There must be some helluva lesson for me to learn and i need to figure it out..and most of all for every cloud theres a silver lining..perhaps..not perhaps for sure...

Sweet Home Alabama
Well yesterday I watched Sweet Home Alabama.It was quite nice.The irritating part is that the screen wasnt clear enough.Some thing had to be done about the resolution.But nothing is done..So anyways I watched it with squinting eyes.So horrible..But still it was so nice and warm..and so southern ..
Yesterday i bought a flask for my bacteria collection.And I can't wait to show it to my supervisor, but he's not in yet now.

confusion

why is it at the brink of a fight..we tend to say things that are not true..(things that we didnt do) in order to pick a fight..to cause somebody angry

Good
Hello, and a very good morning to all.I came here earlier half hour..8.10 from home..8.45 arrived..New mood today. Why? maybe because of Ada Apa dengan cinta I watched yesterday.


Im back here in UM and Im kinda feeling happy.Well i should because i have spilt all my guts out in this blog ..and this blog has made me realize that how important it is to let yourself out and be heard..And i've read somewhere that it's good to have a diary just to keep track of whats going on..


Right now I'm still in the first month of my masters.and the application form has not been finalized by the senate but still i know i'm gonna make it. The saddest part is that..I'm not gonna be paid all this while waiting, untill I get my confirmation, then only I'll be given pay.It seems that all this while my colleages has been paid by the supervising lecturer.I wonder why I am not being paid..Hmm

Okay. about going to UK.Well you know, I go with tha flow,,da flow man..And it seems that now, the flow is very high..the currents is going against me.So I betta not go..Premonitions and all.Thats what I think.The thing with MARA being you have to pay and all.The thing is that I am even not qualified to get a MARA form so sad!.Then the hardship to get a Recommendation letter..And dont forget.JPA is the same.I dont know what else.

I like to compare with others before me..It seems that it's lucky to get the chance of a lifetime.And It seems that, my lecturer got his PhD directly after his first degree.And this means that only once are you allowed to go to overseas.So i betta not push it.So thats what I thought now, anyways.

I still feel that life is about a savings account..and you know i betta not waste it..Cause i gotta save some for myself later..I don't wanna be in debt later in life and have to pay my life with it..(its all in my head)

Forgiven
Today i feel as so sad but still it was better i must say ..because M seemed in a way forgave me.. I feel lonely really lonely in that lab..with no one to really connect to..And i guess i have nothing to do.Thank God..for that ..for i am so afraid of what may come next..Im just preparing myself..preparing..preparing..for the best..Frankly I must say that I cant get along like buddies and chum with M..He's too different from me..and I guess that its best to left things as they are..Hes sometimes kinda forgiving..so, okay..
But still the fact of the matter is that ...I guess I'm gonna have to stride alone..chwe sonel dahakessemnida..do the best that you can ..that's what the koreans say.!

Mon 20.1.03 It starts...

Starting masters isnt as easy as i thought it would be. In fact it isnt easy at all..There are a lot of hindrances to it.First of all, there isn't exactly a teacher to instruct us what to do and what not to do. And secondly, there are colleages to mingle with. Fine of you are one of them but of youre uniquely yourself..well things are gonna be quite a challege.
This is my 3rd week here in UM. and things have been going smoothly.so far..anyway. I'm here in the lab. The reason why i chose this particular supervisor is that he is one of the talented who has connections..Connections that are vital for my well being and my future. And once you got the right connections, thing will go smoothly. Mind you, i'm quite lucky to have a supervisor whos from Oxford..and graduated first class and a muslim all in one..Hes the type of really good in a way that he's really respectful and easy..I like that very much
Although i dont have my best friend with me anymore, D..I feel that it's one way or the other a good thing..because I need to grow. All this while if D's around then I'll be left out completely..